I’ve been asking myself this question lately: “When do you fall in love with a person?” In fact, what does it mean to “fall in love”? I think most people believe that it is something that cannot be controlled, that you fall into love itself, much like you fall into a pool of water and are engulfed by it.
One author described a couple as having “a feeling or a feeling had them…they didn’t quite know…” He was being humorous but I think he had a point.
So here is what I think. To fall in love is much the same as what happens to a soldier or knight who falls in battle. He goes in prepared for the fight but it soon overwhelms him. The odds against him are greater than he can withstand and he falls, a casualty of the battle.
I think this is what happens when we fall in love. We don’t fall into a feeling so much – as wonderful as the feeling is – but we are conquered by our love for the other person, overwhelmed by it and it’s also because we realise that we have found someone that we want to spend the rest of our life with and who is worthy of all the love that we can give them.
Now I can’t prove this definition of falling in love because I haven’t checked it out but I think I’m pretty close to the mark!
So I return to my first question. When do you fall in love with a person?
Ah, that is the question!
Couples begin to date because they like each other and as the relationship grows they find that they like each other even more. Many of them get to the point of loving each other enough to marry and to commit to spending the rest of their lives together.
I discovered at a point in my relationship with Karen that there was a lot of narcissism in my love and although I did not fully understand it completely at the time, God was patiently teaching me what real love was like. That it was not about me but about the other person and I am ashamed to admit that this has been a lesson I have been slow to learn in my life – to love my wife first and then others without conditions, expectations or manipulation.
And falling in love also involves honesty. I well remember the night that Karen and I took the step of being brave enough to share who we really were with each other. Our feelings were a jumble but it was the best thing we ever did in our relationship. During that time we told each other that we loved one another and we did this because we were both confronted with a choice. Now that we knew more about each other we could walk away or we could accept each other.
This wasn’t necessarily an easy choice for either of us to make, but all these years later we know we made the right one. Neither of us wanted to be another “also ran” in a line people whom we had already been rejected by. No matter how confused our feelings might have been at the time we wanted each other to know that we could count on each other and that we would be there for each other.
That night we fell in love. And that process continues today, because falling in love is not a one off event but a life-long process.
I am still falling in love with Karen and I think that is how it will be for the rest of my life. I don’t think you ever just fall in love once. I think you fall in love with the same person, over and over again.
That is what I think it means to “fall in love”!